My anxiety is back. Hit me straight in the stomach. Not too sure where this came from cause life really ain’t that bad. I laid awake for 3 hours thinking about my finances. I spent the entire commute to and from work wondering if I was liked in my company and if I was doing enough. There’s more but I don’t want to think about it. I just want this to go away.
“He’s too nice. He won’t be able to handle me.” That’s one of my biggest issues right now. I need someone who can handle me. And I don’t know if thinking that I need to be “handled” is a good thing. But it’s accurate. Idk. I just don’t think I’m going to find a guy that head over heels for me. There’s just too much crazy to fully love. But it’s ok. It’s ok. Success and children. That’s all I need.
My friends told me not to block my ex’s number because it would be immature and petty. So I didn’t. And it was the worst advice I have every taken. I went through another cycle of toxicity and stress that was completely unnecessary. I don’t know why I listen to other people when no one listens to me.
